Tuesday, January 4, 2011

First Rule of Pregnancy Fight Club

First Rule of Pregnancy Fight Club: Don't tell a really-pregnant woman that her c-section date is actually going to be at almost 40 weeks instead of 39. Sigh. I showed up for my (almost) 36-week appointment today and was not impressed about the news. Of course, I asked what the deal was about it and nobody knew anything about anything. I told them that I had been asking to be scheduled for MONTHS and they assured me that 1/31 would be it. Not so much.

I explained to the PA who I saw that I *knew* that a few days really didn't make a difference, but that the irrational, 3rd-trimester part of me was just not accepting that. Then of course, I started crying and blubbering about how things with Dean were just not ok at birth and every day that I don't know if this baby is ok, it's killing me. She started getting teary-eyed herself and said she would see what she could do about getting the date changed back to earlier in the week.

Honestly, my head is a mess this week anyway. Just being 35 weeks at all has been... surreal. At this time with Dean, things were slowly unraveling and we didn't even know it. At what would be the same gestation as this Thursday, I had Dean.

I know, whine whine whine whine. I'm getting tired of hearing my own whining about this pregnancy and what happened last time... I feel guilty whining when things are in all likelihood going to be FINE this time. But last time was just so crazy. I blogged only a small fraction of what we went through. Crazy. I have the full story written out if anyone wants it so you can understand all my whining. :)

On a happier note, we saw a gorgeous sunset the other night coming home from my parents' house:

I'll leave on that note instead of a whiny one. :)


Barbara said...

Ali - I would love it if you could send me the full story - send it to my email, or I can give you my address.
I am praying for you & for baby too!

Ali Foley Shenk said...

Barbara, YGM!

Candice said...

It's sounds like you are doing great Ali. Don't be so hard on yourself. I would like to read the story too.